Personal Musings


I’m sure we’ve all been there – those moments when someone gets on our nerves, says something uncalled for [or possibly that they didn’t think it through before it came out of their mouths] or seem to be displaying mad pride which they need to deal with [at least…well at least YOU think so, haha – doesn’t that say something about ourselves? haha]…

I’ve definitely been in those situations of late. Feeling frustrated that people seem to think I’m on some prolonged holiday doing nothing because I don’t hold a conventional job right now; feeling annoyed that someone acts like they have everything sorted out and that I’m below them because I don’t….

But then. I remind myself – this is why we need grace. This is why they need grace. For judging me for things that they do not understand. This is why I MYSELF need grace – for judging someone for things that I may not completely understand. Yet I then remember that God is a god of personal, unique relationships – that just because someone’s salvation looks different to mine, doesn’t necessarily make their walk wrong.


And that is why love is a COMMAND, right? Because its never easy to love someone in an unconditional way through our eyes, when WE see the world in a certain way – tunnel vision? – while God can see the WHOLE picture.

God spoke and told me, “I called you to love. Just to LOVE people.” – so I repent of those thoughts…because we need to accept each other as we ARE. That we are all different. And just love them nevertheless.


Romans 12:3 “For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you.”

Romans 12:6a “We have different gifts, according to the grace given us…”

Philippians 2:1-4 “If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”


In other news – Andy Mineo’s new EP ‘Neverland’ dropped yesterday – and while I don’t love ALL of the album’s beats….the lyrics are definitely ALL on point and convict me to think more about my own life and where I came from…so I definitely need to highlight a few tracks on a blog here soon:)) Check it out at!


for now – one of my favourite tracks from his EP…more later!


be blessed!


Beckii x

Passage Musings


Ecclestiastes 7:20 “There is not a righteous man on earth who does what is right and never sins.”

Sobering [at least, for some] reminder that nobody is perfect, and that we are ALL but HUMAN. Even the best of us will mess up like anyone else. We ain’t God. Give grace to others as much as others need to give grace to you.



Personal Musings


…easier said than done, right?


Humility is imperative as a Christian – especially when dealing with people who seemingly have ‘more sin’ than yourself.


Posting this late – I have a billion blogs so excuse my irregularity haha – but I love this depiction of hypocritical, self righteous Christians by Derek Minor [aka Pro], Dee-1 and Lecrae.


Dont judge what you dont know and where you haven’t been – as always, Jesus came for the BROKEN.

Challenging to think about:)





Personal Musings


beeeeen a long, long time since I’ve sat down to blog – life has been jam packed in the past few months! I finally decided to start this blog to document my own self musings, bible studies, and other related things as I walk this journey to seek and pursue God, here in Seoul.


I’ve actually wanted to do this for a long time….but for fear of persecution and provoking I did not. And….well…now I realise…it’s going to come whether I like it or not. ahahah. so whatever! I’m gonna do it anyway.
so please note, everything I say here is my own thoughts and perceptions, and I do this mainly as a record for the outflow of my many, many jumbled thoughts, as well as perhaps to encourage, and stimulate deeper thought for other believers [maybe non believers?!] around.

so, iif you want to read and comment, please do with an open mind, and not one aimed to provoke. THANKS (^___^)
…because then I’m just not going to approve the comment (^____^)v


so the topic of PRIDE, like HUMILITY, is a pretty hard one to tackle.

Pride is, something we most likely all struggle from. Pride being defined as ‘a feeling of deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one’s own achievements, the achievements of one’s close associates, or from qualities or possessions that are widely admired’. This usually comes hand in hand with having achieved something, over/greater than somebody else.

if I say I am not prideful – am I really? [on the flipside, if i said I am humble – in saying that, would I be? haha] For in saying that I am…well…taking pride i the fact that I have done such a thing, and in so doing elevating myself above others who struggle with it….so….maybe not.

Due to the particular enviroment I was exposed to growing up, I was surrounded by prominent influential figures who were incredibly proud, and would often use their status to boast about how much they had, how much better they were than other people, etc….and stemming from that, i despised it, and decided well – that i was going to shut myself DOWN in order to NEVER become proud.

…this kind of backfired on me as I grew up from my harsh self-condemnation and I ended up with about…1% self esteem. ahaha! …eh…0__O [so dont do that either…its incredibly unhealthy]
It is okay to be proud OF your achievements, but it is not okay to think this gives you some sort of platform above other people.

That might seem like a bit of a bold statement but cmon….someone reading this has to relate to thinking themselves better in an area of their life compared to others. I know I do! I do also still struggle in areas of my life that I have pride in. I gotta stop lying to myself!

For example – I guess I’ve always had the appearance of someone who can tolerate a lot of pain/is tough….and I can. buuut I have my limits! Which I of course have lied to myself about. SO…my example is, I was getting reflexology in Singapore with my cousins end of last year, and I told my massage dude that I can take hard massages. if anyone has had reflexology before….it hurts like hell. like REALLY hurts.

Anyway! this particular masseuse dude [I am never going back to you again] was a bit overzealous, and literally put all his strength into crushing my legs. Let me tell you, it was so painful I was breaking out into sweat and I couldnt talk! I think my cousin was wondering why I was so quiet haha. But because I’ve always said, “YEAAH I can take hard reflexology fiiine ^__^” I told myself to shut up and take the pain.


So guess what I ended up with after? two incredibly purply-red very very bruised + sore legs, and a messed up back. ARGH!!! thankyou pride, you just messed me up….



…and many other prideful moments of myself which…may be revealed in due time, but this is my first post so please give me some grace hahaha ^^



Pride is something that the Bible tells us to get rid of, and to embrace humility instead. 1 Peter 5:5-7 (NIV) tells us “All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.” Humble yourselves, therefor, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.”
The greatest commandment we are told to do is to LOVE God, and love one another [Matthew 22:36-40] – so if we think ourselves better than someone else, how can we organically, and truely love others and love God if we think ourselves to be on a platform looking down? [oh herro] This is why HUMILITY is so needed so that we are all on the same level, loving each other equally, not as someone coming from higher or lower status.

1 John 3:16-17 “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?”



It is not possible to emulate true selfless love when you look down on someone out of pity, or because you have something they dont and you want to glorify yourself by giving them something and showing them you have that power. Because then the focus is given to yourself, and not to God – let us do things not to elevate ourselves, but to elevate Him.

James 13-16 “Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you harbour bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such “wisdom” does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.
But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.”



With pride, we cannot truly receive the things of God, because we don’t really want what He wants, we want what WE want. and that blocks His will from flowing through us. [ James 4:2-3 “You want something but don’t get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.”]


It is who we ARE, and what we DO with it that matters in the end, and NOT what we OWN, and what our STATUS is.


Because at the end of the day, all this dies with us. What remains? The relationships you built with people, the legacy you left behind of being that person to humble themselves and truely help someone in need because of genuine care and love. Noone cares how much money you have when you die [unless you got yourself a GOOLDDD DIGGERR WHOOO ….jk], they want the hearts who love them to be near them.

James 4: 14-16 “Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will love and do this or that.” As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil.”

Let us be blessed by blessing others – but do so without ulterior motives! [1 Peter 3: 8-9 “…live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.”]

…and hand in hand with pride, comes judgement – as we ALL already know…we are in no position to judge others as we ourselves are FAR from perfect! I know I am culprit to this all the time…and I’m glad His mercies are new every day or some large finger from heaven would probably come down and squash me *SQUISH* Do not throw rocks at others when you aint without sin yourself! do NOT judge!

Come to me if you need glasses to clearly see the speck of dust in your brothers eye, and I’ll remove that massive foreign body in your own eye….haha I am so funny -____- *nerd*



So…I dont know if this all made sense. It made more sense in my head then when I transferred it to text. But let us all DIE to pride. For we were made NEW in Christ, not refurbished/renovated/fixed up but brand NEW…so these things dont need to be with us anymore:)[Matthew 9: 16-17 ” “No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment, for the patch will pull away from the garment, making the tear worse. Neither do men pour new wine into old wineskins. If they do, the skins will burst, the wine will run out and the wineskins be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins, and both are preserved.” “].

Not easy…but thats why God’s mercies are newwwwww everyyyy dayyyy!! PtL! die to self; and tell your flesh to SHUT UP:D

Let us love, love, love:)
2 John 5-6 ” …I am not writing you a new command but one we have had from the beginning. I ask that we love one another. And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love.”



Be blessed!


beckii xo


p.s something tells me im going to have to die to self straight after posting this… -___-