Personal Musings

HERE WE GO AGAIN: END OF YEAR MUSINGS 2017 (한국말)

(위의 그림은 이번 연말의 방금 완성했던 원숭이 그림~ 업데이트를 받기위해 저의 개인적인 @beckiiness + 새로운 디자인 하는 @indreamality 인스타그램들을 팔로우해주세요~!! 자기 블로그이니까 자기 홍보 할수 있죠~ㅋㅋFeatured image is…a preview of this year’s new year monkeydoodle. Please follow my Instagram accounts @beckiiness and new design one @indreamality for updates! Shameless promo because I can. Haha.)

(I’m going to attempt to translate this for the first time into Korean…for practice…haha can I do it? 번역 연습을 하려고 처음으로 이 연말에 대한 내용을 영어에서 한국말로 번역해 보려고 해요…저 잘할 수 있을까요? ㅋㅋ사실은 이런 내용 번역할때마다 어떤 착한언니에게 한국말을 좀 확인해달라고 부탁해요~ㅋㅋ 고마운 마음 담아서 올릴게요~)

So it’s that time of year again; where I sit down and reminisce on the year that was; this year 2016. I can’t believe how fast time passes…barely a blink of an eye and it will be 2017! I find it so fascinating and almost unbelievable, the rollercoaster ride that God has taken me on since I left Australia for Korea in 2012. Every single year thereafter has been one of tests, trials and hardships; every single year has been vastly different from the year before it…and in those moments it has felt impossible, hopeless, frightening, exhilarating, crazy, and everything in between. But God always pulls me through to mould me into a greater, stronger person, and has opened doors that (no man can open, haha) I never thought would have been made available to me.

올해도 다시 이 시기가 왔네요~ 가만히 앉아 2016년 올해를 회상하는… 시간이 이렇게 빨리 지나가는 걸 믿을 수가 없어요…눈을 몇 번만 깜빡하면 이미 2017년이 될 것 같아요~! 2012년에 호주에서 떠나서 한국으로 향한 저를, 하나님께서 마치 롤러코스터처럼 이끌어 주신 것은 너무 신기하고 정말 믿기 어려운 일이라 생각돼요. 그 후 매년, 시험, 고난과 어려움으로 가득했고, 매 해가 그 전 해와 완전히 달라졌어요…그리고 그 순간들에 제가 얼마나 절망적이었고, 두려웠고, 짜릿했고, 복잡하고 불가능하다 느꼈는지…그런데 변함없이 하나님의 인도하심가운데 그 시간을 거치하며 더 강하고, 회복력이 빠른 사람으로 만들어 주셨고 나에게 허락될 수 없다고 생각하는 문들을(인간이 열 수 없는ㅎㅎ) 저에게 열어 주셨어요.

I know I say this every year….but who would have thought I would be where I am now, doing what I am now? The me in Australia…staring blankly, hopelessly at the wall in front of me in my little box of a room in the back of the optical stores I worked for as an optometrist – my high paying, yet to me, such mundane and empty work – thinking, “This is my life and I have no choice.” whilst dreaming of so, so much more…to be able to impact the world and do huge, great, inspiring things. Four years on…I am a full time missionary in a KOREAN team in THAILAND…performing on stage (the introvert in me looks on in wonder – y’all who know the old me would understand…I would have adamantly REFUSED in the past from my fear and anxiety), travelling to many different countries and provinces every few days/weeks/months, translating from a language that I am self-taught in (God’s blessing in itself that * somehow * I understand Korean to the extent I do now, with my somewhat messy foundation) into English, doing design and art, working in an entertainment and music field – What the!? Even though it has been incredibly, INCREDIBLY hard, stressful and I have struggled through this year with many tears…I cannot deny that I did not dream of things very similar to this. And, I have even bigger dreams than this…but God you got me right?:) I’m looking forward to next year!!! Hahaha…

저는 매년 이렇게 말하기는 하지만, 사실 이 자리에서 지금 이러한 일을 하는 것을 누가 상상이나 할 수 있었을까요?? 호주에 어떤 안경점의 작은 뒷방에서 검안사로 일하며 앞 벽을 멍하니 응시하던 저… 돈을 많이 벌 수 있기는 한데 저에게 의미 없고 공허하기만 했던 일… 저는 “이게 내 삶이고, 내게 다른 선택지는 없어…”라고 생각하면서도 더욱 더 큰 일에 대해 꿈을 꿨어요… 이 세상에 좋은 영향을 줄 수 있고 어마어마하면서, 훌륭하고, 영감을 줄 수 있는 일을 하는 것에 대해서요. 4년뒤…저는 태국에 위치한 한국선교팀에 전임으로 속해 있고…무대 위에 공연하고 있고 (제 내면에 있는 내향적인 저는 사실 너무 놀랐어요~ 예전의 저를 아는 분들은 무슨 말인지 잘 아실 거예요… 그때의 저는 너무 두렵고 긴장돼서 절대 올라가지 못했을 거예요.), 며칠/몇 주/몇 달마다 많은 다른 나라들을 가고, 스스로 배운 언어를 영어로 해석하고 있고 (뭔가 좀…부실한 기반으로 시작했지만, 이 정도로 한국말을 이해할 수 있는 것 자체가 하나님께서 주신 축복이라는 생각이 많이 들었거든요), 디자인과 미술을 하고 있고, 엔터테인먼트과 음악 산업에서 일하고 있고…정말 말도 안 돼지 않아요?! 비록 이 시간들은 엄청나게 힘들었고, 스트레스도 많이 받았고, 올해는 눈물을 흘리면서 씨름하고 노력했지만…예전에 이런 것에 대해 꿈꿔왔던 것을 부정할 수 없어요. 그리고, 저는 이것보다 더 큰 꿈이 있어요…하나님, 저를 도와주실 거죠? 내년이 많이 기대돼요…!!!ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

People laughed when I made this decision, my crazy decision to tackle two different cultures at the same time, neither of which is my own, neither of which I understand fully…and to do it in a high-pressure missionary environment, which made it 10 times harder. Dealing with cultural differences and language barriers twice over on top of minimal sleep and a heavy work schedule. I felt isolated, alone, misunderstood and once again, like I did not fit in and was not pulling my weight for my team. I would be lying if I said that I hadn’t thought of quitting MULTIPLE times, if my strength did not come through kneeling in the prayer room in a puddle of tears, crying before the Lord…many, many times.

But, as I have learnt and grown to understand through the years; to stay comfortable is to stay stagnant, to stay static and to NOT grow, and – that our lives and our understanding of what it is, really DOES begin at the end of our comfort zone. And for that reason I like to challenge myself – to push myself to become better, to learn more things, to expand my worldview and understanding of things. To become a better, more improved version of myself. To become the awesome person that God intended me to be (Psalm 139:13-16), despite all my flaws.

이런 결정을 내렸을 때 사람들이 저를 많이 비웃었어요. 제 문화와 전혀 다른, 완벽히 이해하지 못하는 또 다른 두 문화 속에서 동시 살아본다는 이런 결정… 특히 선교적인 긴장을 요하는 분위기에서 씨름 해야하니 제게는 10배는 더 어려운 것 같았어요. 수면부족과 과중한 업무 중에 있으면서 2배의 문화 차이와 언어장벽을 감당한다는 것이요. 너무 고립되었다고, 외롭다고, 오해를 받는다고 많이 느꼈고, 이 팀에 내가 잘 어울리지 않고, 우리 팀을 위해 보탬이 되지 못한다고 많이 느꼈어요. 그때 여러 번 포기하고 싶다고 생각하지 않았다면 거짓말이고, 기도실에 여러 번 무릎을 꿇고 하나님 앞에 비 오듯 눈물을 흘리며 힘을 얻은 것이 없다고 말한다면 거짓말이에요.
그러나…제가 나이를 먹으며 지난 몇 년 동안 배운 것은, 편안히 있다는 것은 침체되어 있다는 것이고, 고정되어 있고 성장하지 않는다는 것이에요. 그리고, 자신의 한계를 넘는 순간, 자신의 인생과 삶에 대한 의식이 딱 시작된다고 깨달았어요. 그래서 이 이유때문에 저는 저를 도전하게 하는 것을 좋아해요~ 제가 더 나아질 수 있고, 더 많은 것을 배울 수 있고, 세계관과 인식도 넓어질 수 있도록… 예전의 저보다 더 나은, 더 발전한 제가 될 수 있도록… 비록 저는 결점이 많은 사람이지만, 하나님께서 내가 원래 되길 바라신 대단한사람이 될 수 있도록 도전하는 것… (시편 139:13-16).

So as I reflect on this year – I look back in thankfulness. To know that without these experiences that God has ALLOWED me to have, the suffering as well as the blessings – I would not be who I am, right now. I would not have the depth of thought that I have now, nor the greater understanding I now have for the entertainment and music industry/Korean culture/Thai culture/missionary life/developing countries, nor the new sets of skills that He has given me had I not gone through hot water. There are so many wonderful people I would not know now, had I not gone the route I have.
Not saying that I have it all figured out…now having to deal with a new transition period due to quite serious health issues and a very foggy path in front of me…my brain is clouded with many, many thoughts and worries and frustrations, but even writing this now is a reminder to myself – that God will always, always provide and that there is a reason for every season…even if every season has been super hard and taxing, hahahahaha (=____=) You got me, right Jesus!? I am thankful for everything I have been able to experience.

그래서 올해를 뒤돌아보며, 저는 감사한 마음으로 회상하고 있어요. 고난 및 축복을 비롯한 하나님께서 이런 허락하신 경험들 없다면 저는 지금의 제가 아니었을 것 같아요. 지금의 이런 깊은 생각을 가지고 있을 수 없었고, 엔터테인먼트와 음악 산업/한국문화/태국 문화/선교사 생활/개발도상에 대해 이만큼 이해할 수 없었을 것이고, 어려운 시간을 겪지않았다면 지금의 새로운 기술들도 없었을 것 같아요. 이런 길을 거치지않았다면 수 많은 훌륭한 분들도 못 만났을 거예요.

지금 제가 다 알아냈다는 것이 아니고…어떤 건강문제가 있기 때문에, 저는 지금 새로운 과도기를 거쳐야 되고, 앞에 아무것도 볼 수 없는 상황 가운데, 머리 속에 고민과 생각이 많고, 좌절감도 느끼고 있는데, 이렇게 블로그를 쓰는 것으로 하나님께서 늘 다 제공해주시고, 너무 힘들어도 모든 것에는 이유가 있다는 사실을 스스로에게 상기시키는 거예요. 예수님, 저를 돌봐 주실 거죠!? ㅎㅎㅎ….저는 겪었던 모든 것들에 너무 감사해요.

A celebrity who I like said something very wise on a reality program in regards to dealing with the burden of being in a vocation like his (which mine is kind of…not quite the same but very similar in terms of a busy schedule/not much sleep/very little rest – and needing to present your best appearance to many people despite these unseen factors)…I’m not going to write who it is, but if you know, you will know haha.

어떤 리얼리티 프로그램에서 제가 좋아하는 어떤 연예인이 일의 무게를 어떻게 견딜 수 있는지 지혜롭게 이야기 했었어요. (제 일도 좀 비슷해요….똑같지는 않는데 바쁜 일정/수면부족/쉬는 시간 별로 없는 것/모르는 사람들 앞에 무조건 좋은 모습 보여주는 것 같은 부분이 좀 비슷해요)…누군지 말하진 않을 건데, 아시는 분은 아시겠죠 ㅋㅋ

Hyung: When you go back to Seoul, you also have schedule straight away, right? (Background: reality program set in a country many many many hours/very far away from Korea)
Celeb: * nods * The next…

Hyung: The next day?

Celeb: It’s a little scary, right hyung? …is that the right expression, for me to say that I’m scared/frightened?

Hyung: Yep thats right, scary.

Celeb: When I’m like that, when I call my dad every night, that was the first time I told him that I was having a really hard time…at that time he said, “You KNOW that this work is what you’ve wanted to do from a very early age.”…

Hyung: Right…

Celeb: When I heard that I thought, ah…my thoughts are so shallow/I’m so short-sighted!…It’s possible that things can get hard, but the difficulties…if I THINK that it’s going to be hard, then it would end up feeling EVEN harder, I would be even more fed up, I would feel even more ashamed and frustrated…so, because I think, “Ah, the thing that I’m able to happily do, is this work alone” (then he can cope, he means. My translation might not be so clear across the internet><)

형: 서울 가면 너도 바로 스케줄 있지? (배경: 프로그램은 어떤 먼 나라에서 찍었어요)

연예인: *끄덕* 다음…

형: 다음날?

연예인: 좀 겁나죠? 형…난 겁이란 표현이 맞나?

형: 어 겁나..

연예인: 전 그럴 때 아빠랑 맨날 전화할 때 힘들다고 처음 말 했었거든요. 그때 “옛날부터 너가 하고 싶어 하는 일이잖아.” 이러시는 거예요…

형: 그치…

연예인: 그 말씀을 들으니까 아, 내 생각이 짧았구나…힘들 수도 있긴 하지만 그 힘듬을…힘들다고 생각하면 더 힘들고, 더 지치고, 더…자괴감을 빠지고 더 답답하게 느껴지는데… “즐겁게 일할 수 있는게 이 일 뿐이구나”라고 생각하니까…

So on hearing this, it gave me a lot of motivation and strength. Our attitude plays a big role in how we see our circumstances and I think this is something that I could learn. To try my best to be positive, to be thankful in all circumstances, to constantly look forward and UP – to fuel myself to study harder, train harder, and have greater faith in the majesty and sovereignty of my one and only Saviour.

그래서 그 말을 듣고 저는 힘과 자극을 많이 받았어요. 우리의 현재상황을 평가하는 것에 관해서 태도라는 것이 큰 역할을 하고, 제가 배울 수 있는 부분은 이것이라 생각해요.

긍정적이기 위해, 어떤 경우에도 감사한 마음을 가지기 위해, 꾸준히 앞을 보고, 하늘을 보도록 최선을 다하는 것 – 더 열심히 공부하고, 더 열심히 훈련하고, 저의 유일한 구세주 예수 그리스도의 위대함과 능력에 대한 믿음을 흔들리지 않게 노력하는 것이라고요.

As this year ends…my heart is a bit torn. Glad that this season is over; yet feeling like I could have done so much more and worked so much harder. Excited for all the possibilities next year will bring, yet uncertain and afraid in the face of health complications and other logistical issues.

연말이 다가오면서…제 마음이 약간 찢어지는 것 같아요. 이번 시즌이 끝난 것에 대해 좀 안도하는 동시에, 그 때 더 많은 것을 할 수 있었고, 더욱 더 열심히 일할 수 있었다라는 생각이 많이 들었어요…내년의 가능성들에 대해 너무 기대되는데, 건강 문제와 다른 문제들이 있기 때문에 너무 불안하고 두려워요.

My hopes and prayers for 2017:
1. Marriage – HAHAHAHAHA. No really. Prease Jesus? (…HAHAHAHA…sigh)
2. For a huge expansion in opportunities to create influence on a global scale – for not only my team, but myself…to have a platform of influence to speak truth and inspiration into the lives of many, to love them…
3. Complete physical healing (if you would like to pray for me, I have a damaged left hip…its been three years now and it could be a lifelong issue, they tell me)
4. More God-given connections within the music and entertainment industry

5. Improvement in languages – for God to continue to open up my mind to Korean, but also Chinese (Mandarin, Cantonese) and Thai (and other languages)
6. Improvement in physical state – some of you might grill me for this, but weight loss; I need it for not only appearance but also for my health/hip issue.

2017년의 제 기도 제목들과 소망들:
1. 결혼 – ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ. 아니 정말이에요. 주님~~? (ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ….휴)
2. 저희 팀뿐만 아니라 자신을 위해 전세계적으로 영향력을 줄 수 있는 기회들을 확장하기를. 많은 이들의 삶에 진리와 영감을 전할 수 있는 영향력의 플랫폼을 가질 수 있게 되기를….다른 이들을 사랑하기를…
3. 몸의 치유 (저를 위해 혹시 기도해주시고 싶다면, 저는 왼쪽의 골반에 문제가 있어요… 이미 3년동안 아팠는데 평생 관리 해야 될 상황일 수도 있다고 해요…)
4. 음악과 엔터테인먼트 산업 안에서 하나님께서 연결 해주신 관계들이 더 생겨나기를…
5. 언어 개선 – 한국어뿐만 아니라 중국어, 광동어, 태국어 등이 늘 수 있도록
6. 신체 상태의 개선 – 몇몇 분들이 뭐라고 하실 수 있지만 – 체중감량~! 외모를 위한 것뿐만 아니라 건강/골반을 위해서도 필요해요.

2016, you did not fail to challenge me. 2017, I pray you will be good to me.

God bless you all, and let's welcome in 2017 together!!!

Beckii.

2016년, 저를 성공적으로 도전 시켜주었어요. 2017년, 저에게 잘 해주기를 기도할게요~

모두를 축복합니다~! 우리 다 함께 기쁘게 2017년을 맞이해요~!!!

베키 올림~

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Time really flies, huh?

It’s already been 1.5 weeks in Australia (after being away from it for over a year…crazy!) and in a few days I will say goodbye, yet again to go back to my current life in Seoul. I want to go back, its been a crazy tiring time of medical appointments (of which I will not go into) and a billion catch ups; but it was good to see my family again and friends. God is good!

I spoke on prayer at my church service last weekend; so I thought I would share what I spoke on here. Nothing particularly new or revolutionary, but its from my heart and my own experience. Enjoy:)

“Thankyou for inviting me to share today; I think what I am sharing may not be new to a lot of you, but these are things that God has opened up my eyes to more than ever in the last 2 years, and it doesn’t hurt to hear it again.

So I have a question for you – who here has a wife or husband? How about a boyfriend or girlfriend? What about a crush? Who has friends? Those who don’t, its okay, you have Jesus! He’s the best one of all. Anyway! The point I’m trying to get at is, how do we get to know people that we want to eventually build a relationship of some sort with? We talk to them right? We seek their company more frequently, and want to be in their presence.

Like any human relationship, it is the same, if not even more with God. Like our fellow brother in Christ Jeremy Lin said, “to know Him is to want to know Him more”. If we are to know WHO God is and what He wants us to do in this life, then we MUST seek Him more. So, how do we do this? We PRAY. Our communication with the Father is through prayer, seeking His heart through our prayers, and our time devoted to him. And like any other relationship, the more time we spend in His presence seeking him, and praying, the more that we start to understand his absolute majesty, and all the wonderfully crazy things he can do in your life.

The Bible tells us to be in prayer constantly and without stopping. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 tells us, “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” and Romans 12:12 “Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.”

We also know that the bible is a VITAL supplement to prayer. 2 Timothy 3:16 tells us, “All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness.”, so we KNOW that in conjunction with prayer, the Bible gives us written proof of God’s character. Not only that, but you have a backing to what you believe, if someone comes up to you and asks you WHY you believe.

To be honest, in my years as a Christian before I left for Korea I barely picked up my bible, aside from using it to check sermon references in church or lifegroup. I always thought “Yeah, I probably should try reading more…” but that thought would never develop into an action, and consequently my lack of understanding and intimacy with God led me to always struggling to believe the validity of my faith in Christ – because I had no semblance of what an Spirit-filled relationship with God should feel like.

But in my desperation to find life meaning once leaving the life I knew behind in Australia, I started to go through and read my bible every day, tried to study and understand each chapter I read. And slowly, combined with more prayer, did I then start to see God move powerfully in my life.

So I say to the old Beckii as well as to those of you who here who are not consistent with prayer and reading of your bible, that perhaps wonder WHERE God is in your life and where He fits in (or where YOU fit in) in the grand scheme of battling for Christ in this fallen world; I encourage you to start seeking God earnestly in prayer. The more I prayed, the more I saw how great the spiritual battle is.

Look at the world around us – how frequently is tragedy happening these days? The war between Israel and Gaza; the beheading and killing of Christians by ISIS in Iraq, the massacres in Syria, countless acts of unjust police brutality in America, increased frequency of natural disasters, increased frequency of sex trafficking in adults AND children, mental illness and suicide rising in a money-driven era, secret intelligence forces at work…and the list goes on. Australia is very far away from a lot of these countries, but Korea being a more centrally located country, tragedy is very much real and present – as South Korea experienced a few months ago with the horrific Sewol ferry accident.

So, this can be overwhelming. What should I do? What CAN I do? The worst thing we can do as Christians is to be INDIFFERENT. Because isn’t that what Satan wants us to do? To sit back and live like everyone else? The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. We can see the world changing right before our eyes; and he is doing everything he can to distract you with worldly temptations and obstacles, to prevent you from following Jesus and being used as a soldier of light.

Aside from making donations and physically helping where possible, PRAYER is the greatest weapon we have, as God’s army. The more we pray, the more our will aligns to God and HIS heart becomes OURS. The more we pray, the more prayer will change YOU.

So for those who are unable to pray for themselves, we stand and intercede and pray on behalf of them. For even if the world is Satan’s playground, He who lives IN us is far greater than he who lives in this world. And don’t worry if prayer seems to do nothing sometimes. Like any relationship, it takes time to build up one with God, and to know what His voice sounds like. BUT if you DON’T pray– you won’t know at all.

God created us all differently, BUT he did create us for a specific purpose. We all know how much better it is to do things with purpose, rather than doing something aimlessly, right? And even on those days when we don’t feel like doing anything at all, to have a solid purpose will drive your passion to do more, and greater things.

For me, in my situation right now, to rely on God and remember my purpose in Korea is all I have. It is NOT easy at all. I have no visa, no income at all (a big contrast from my previous high paying job here), Korean is NOT my mother tongue, and due to a lot of constant changing factors the future ahead of me is foggy and unstable. BUT, it is thanks to these circumstances that I have been forced to rely solely on God, and so the blessings when they come are THAT much more beautiful, and life-changing. So much so, that I am truly thankful for all the little things He has done for me even in the crazy chaos and uncertainty that I live in, in Seoul, and my faith has grown ten-fold…

…I believe that God is starting to use hiphop for Christ in a really powerful way in recent years, seeing the boom in popularity of Christian hiphop in the states, as well as the influence of hiphop in general in music and fashion culture…

…God is opening up a lot of doors for me in Korea despite my unstable state of no income and no visa, so I do believe I am to be in Seoul, even though spiritual attacks are occurring, and there are a lot of factors against me right now. I know God is preparing to do some really crazy things, and I already see the fruit and blessings in brothers and sisters around me, and hope those blessings will be extended to me in due time. You know you’re doing a good thing for Christ when Satan starts attacking, haha….”

Don’t doubt. Thats a reminder to myself, too.

Be blessed!

Beckii.

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WHY DO WE NEED TO GO TO CHURCH?

I remember back to the days of before I became a Christian – I refused, on all costs, to go to church out of my own will.

“Hey you should come to church this week!” “Yeah…maybe. We’ll see…”

 

I was highly intimidated by the thought of church. As a shy and introverted person [people who know me in real life may call me out on this one, haha – but honestly I’ve just learnt how to fake being extroverted pretty well over the past 15 years or so] it terrified me to go to somewhere where there would be MASSES of people I didn’t know, to have to be SEEN [and possibly approched? Or APPROACH PEOPLE!? GAH!!], to engage in awkward small talk about stuff I knew nothing about [or possibly cared nothing about]…MEET PEOPLE? ME? The scared introvert inside me cowered.

 

So in short, the idea of going to church scared me sh*tless. My mother would always ask me to try going to one with her and I would adamantly refuse, saying, “I can still believe in God, I don’t need to go to church to believe.”

 

Nearly 10 years down the track, I see how wrong I was – and how much my life has changed for the better after I stopped letting fear run my life – fear of people, fear of opinions, fear of what I didn’t know….of anything and everything, really.

 

So…why DO we need to go to church? [this is directed to the Christians…of course I would love for non-Christians to also come to church – the right one anyway – but I ain’t about to smack anyone in the face with a Bible, if you get my drift heh]

 

A couple of reasons that I have experienced for myself/seen in others:

 

  1. COMMUNITY

Man was not created to be alone – people need people. And as much as I hate people sometimes and want to be left alone, we weren’t meant to try and figure this life thing all out by ourselves. Church brings community, accountability – allowing for us to become support and strength for one another. Strength in numbers!

 

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: if one falls down, his friend can help him up, But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!

Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?

Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.”

 

1 Thessalonians 5:11
“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.”

 

  1. GROWTH

Okay…so this isn’t a mutually exclusive point but – interacting with others allows for us to learn and grow in our faith and understanding from other’s knowledge/wisdom, and vice versa. We can always give greater insight on something to someone else, and conversely back to us. Face it – we don’t know everything about everything.

 

Not to mention – dealing with a whole lot of different people with different characters and personalities challenges us to grow in areas we might not have encountered before. Such as, patience and tolerance. HAHA. [and grace…let us not forget grace=P ]

 

Hebrews 5: 12-14
“In fact, though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you the elementary truths of God’s word all over again. You need milk, not solid food! Anyone who lives in milk, being still an infant, is not acquainted with the teaching about righteousness. But solid food is for the mature, who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil.”

 

Proverbs 27:17
“As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.”

 

Hebrews 10:24-25
“And let us consider how we may spur one another on towards love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another – and all the more as you see the Day approaching.”

 

I would mention teachng…but that’s kind of self explainatory and falls under growth of some sort, anyway:)

 

In all aspects, [I know now that] church is not defined by the building, but rather the PEOPLE – each who form the body of Christ, with Jesus as the cornerstone foundation – and each person has their own unique purpose to work as one whole, functioning body.

After all, we wouldn’t be able to accomplish anything great and widespread if we were all created the same and could only do the same thing, right? [embrace your differences – DO YOU BOO. Ahahaha.]

 

 

Romans 12:4-6
“Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us.”

 

1 Corinthians 12-26
“The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body – whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free – and we were all given the one Spirit to drink.

 

Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. If the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. If the whole body was a eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, ever one of them, just as he wanted them to be. If they were all one part, where would the body be? As it is, there are many parts, but one body.

 

The eye cannot say to the hand, “I don’t need you!” And the head cannot say to the feet, “I don’t need you!” On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.”

 

So although we go to church in a building each week [or should strive to] – we go for the greater purpose of BEING the church, building each other up in Christ and supporting each other, and learning from one another when the storms in life come.

 

One more time? Don’t be afraid – we ALL need people, the RIGHT people in our lives. And….DO YOU BOO. Ahahaha. It could change your life [disclaimer: provided you find the right church, haha]! I wish I could have told this to my terrified teenage self all those years ago…

 

Be blessed,

 

Beckii x

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GOODBYE 2013, HELLO 2014.

monkeybear new years eve 2013
(shameless plug for my art page —>HERE, hehe^^)





As I sit and write this, I can’t believe that as 2014 rolls around I will have been here in Seoul for one year. One whole year! – well, longer than that if you count my short 2012 stint but…anyway – what an incredible year. I…don’t even know where to begin. My life has done a complete 180 degrees since stepping back into South Korea in December 2012 – reminiscing with church family at New Years Eve on what we were thankful for, what we hoped for 2013…I remember as I said goodbye to Melbourne, as I sat waiting for transit in Singapore – only I felt that impact, the anxiousness of a new season to come. Scared of what I couldn’t see. That this was IT.

I said goodbye to my life in Australia; I wasn’t sure what was going to happen – “GOD, HAVE YOUR WAY” – maybe I would sort myself in 3 months, and return back to Australia, go back to the life I knew and hated. Maybe 6 months. And maybe, maybe I wouldn’t come back. I didn’t know.

So I plugged myself into as much as I possible could; double church service every Sunday for 6 months, prayer meetings 1-2 times a week, bible studies 1-2 weeks, my own bible reading and study every day, worship nights, retreats, EVERYTHING. I asked myself, to TEST myself, how far, how hard, how MUCH can I do to know God? how HARD can I run to follow You? How much can I push myself to grow and develop, to squash all my issues and thoughts that ate away at me?

But God is faithful, and oh man has it been OVERWHELMING. The crazy things I witnessed in others’ lives and in my own, things I would have never thought would be possible to happen to me. Blessings in good things as well as the inadvertent blessings in a lot of crazy stressful things this year too – there have been a lot of ‘firsts’ for me – because its through the hardships, through the trials that we grow…not in the things that come without effort.
And yes I’ve made mistakes. OHH I’ve made many a mistake this year…. =___= But God can use EVERY situation; and His grace and blessings were THAT much apparent in my brainless moments.

So I am thankful to now know that there IS something to live for, that I DO have purpose for this life, for the amazing people of all walks of life that I have met – and that I owe it all to Him for showing me that life can be beautiful, among the mess – and all the things I didn’t ask for (and a lot of the ones that I did! the rest…Lord I’m learning to be patient, hahahaha >___<) to have pretty much fallen in my lap this year. Blessed!!

As I look back now – who I am now is miles from the old me; the old me who didn’t know if she was throwing up empty prayers to the sky; the old me who was jaded by the lukewarm church; the old me who cried out for life with meaning and love and appreciation. So thank you, THANK YOU for showing me that life CAN be so much more, when I thought it to be impossible.

Everything is still a work in progress right now, and things are still very much in the grey zone – but even in limbo i have HOPE for 2014; hope for even BIGGER breakthroughs! in relationship, in business, in personal growth, spiritual growth, in church ministry – I believe we are capable of MORE^__^ there is beauty in the breakdown; joy in seeing something amazing rise from nothing (haha. first and foremost, I saw that change in myself, so its possible).

I also truly believe God is working in the urban community here and around the world – so I am beyond excited to pray and see where that will go! I LOVE HIPHOP~!! as if that wasn’t obvious before…hehehe.

So in 2014, I hope and pray that I will learn to TRUST in Him better. That God shows me how to love others better, more freely, more selflessly. That God will show me how to RECEIVE love better. That God will raise up the urban community for His glory here in Korea and globally, and that we can be true light and salt in the darkness. That we become disciples of Christ, not just ‘Sunday Christians’ wanting to save our own asses and to glorify ourselves.

Promised to myself that I would be as transparent as possible from the beginning to be accountable for myself, and a true testament of God’s grace to others – so as the new year comes around, I hope I can continue to do the same…and break stereotypes. Enough with hypocritical Christians…aint nobody got time for that!

My non-exhaustive ‘resolutions’ list for 2014 would be:

  1. work my butt off design wise and improve for business/church/freelance – but learn when to say ‘NO’
  2. get back to improving my Korean again. And time willing…Chinese =__=
  3. grow in Christ – learn to love/receive love better:)
  4. travel to Taiwan/Thailand/somewhere!!
  5. heal from injuries and somehow get fit again…

So HAPPY NEW YEAR to you all! Hope that 2014 is filled with blessings and wondrous things for everyone:)


Be blessed!

Beckii xo

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