Personal Musings


Why herro, thankyou for stopping by. Disclaimer: these thoughts are my own, nothing else. You don’t have to agree with it:)

This question has been playing on my mind lately; what exactly does it mean to be Christian?

The preconceived notion by self-righteous Christians and a lot of non-Christians about Christians being/needing to be seen as ‘perfect’ and ‘flawless’ because [perrrhappsss] they are ‘holy’… is common, but far from the truth….when in reality [again] we ALL fall short of God, as we are human and ALL falliable to sin, and ALL have the potential to sin equally.


So I pose the question to myself [and I suppose, everyone else] – what is a Christian? What SHOULD a Christian look like?

If you see someone on the street dressed differently to you, listening to different music to you, someone who has different issues to you…are they unlikely or unable to believe Jesus is the Son of God, and that he also died for them?

It’s pretty common to judge others by appearance, especially within church circles, as this pastor’s blog evidently displays…


For the first time as a minister of the gospel I poorly attempted to put my feet in the shoes of “non-christians” and I confess… I would have probably written off church/organized religion if I wasn’t already a Christian.”



To be Christian is to believe in our salvation through Jesus Christ, to have a relationship with Him, to believe that we are weak where He is strong, that God becomes our strength. God is a personal God, so whatever your salvation looks like doesn’t necessarily look like someone elses – and I feel that is where a lot of misunderstanding and misconceptions stem from; and hypocritical Christians start to point fingers. Point fingers in their pride over someone else, when they don’t see the log in their own eye.


John 8: 3-9 “…They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.

But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.” Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.

At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there.”

[side note: Trip Lee from Lecrae’s crew 116 writes a good article on the meaning of judging others, based on the passage from Matthew 7: HERE]


I felt that. When I first became Christian, I struggled pretty badly with my identity. Who am I? Who am I SUPPOSED to be? Possibly the only girl to rock up weekly to church in kicks and hoodies [when I didn’t have work, haha], I felt like I could never be as ‘holy’ or ‘good’ as the leaders up on stage.


Yes I like [love!?] hiphop music. Yes I like ear piercings and tattoo art. Yes I have done regretful stupid things and made mistakes. Am I unworthy? And so that guilt and shame would be a constant tide over me, waves after waves, every week and at every church event.


Lecrae feat. W.L.A.K – Misconception Pt 2

“We’re flawless and we think we’re better

Its official got it all together

We don’t want em getting the wrong impressions

Cause that ain’t real thats a misconception

Been a struggle only Jesus keep us

And we still fall, so its hard to get up

We don’t want em getting the wrong impressions

Cause this is real, ain’t no misconception.”


It wasn’t until I came to Korea this time round that God convicted me and spoke volumes into my life – that I realised that my worth isn’t/doesn’t have to be of this world and of what people think of me, but lies in Him and what He thinks of me.

“Don’t you care what I think?” …I think we can get so caught up in trying to please the world and the people around us that we forget [as Christians] whose opinion matters the most. And! That God loves us, and takes as as we ARE, scars, blemishes and all.


Romans 5:7-8 “Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”


I started to see that I wasn’t the only one who could love hiphop culture and Jesus culture concurrently. That I didn’t need to pretend to be someone else. That God made us all differently…SO THAT we can relate and and reach out and spread love to people who are like us, but who don’t know Jesus. Meet them where they are at; rather than speaking from a place ‘above’ or from one that they cannot relate to.


Lecrae ‘I am Second’


Lecrae on Erasing Sacred/Secular Divide & Engaging Culture


A friend from church asked me last week, “What do you think of Christian screamo music?” Well…it’s not really my cup of tea, but if it convicts your heart and allows you to draw closer to God, and worship/praise in a more relatable way….why not? Who are we to judge? [provided the lyrics are God-glorifying and pointing to Him in some way…else…I dunno maybe not hahah]


Just in the same vein – I have plenty of friends who would not touch my Christian hiphop. But for me…whose mood can COMPLETELY lift when I hear awesome music that touches my heart, especially hiphop – to hear people rapping or singing [WELL!] over a [GOOD!] beat – challenging me, convicting me in the lyrics and pointing me closer to God…well. That’s freakin awesome. And makes me excited….hehe \o/!


It is by grace alone that we are saved, by what JESUS did, not by our own strengths.

Ephesians 2:8-9 “For it is by grace that you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast.”


So let God work in your life the way that He is supposed to…because God made you the way He wanted, and can make something out of EVERY situation in our lives! If change occurs – it’ll be through Him and because of Him; not because of other humans guiding your actions.


It’s ridiculous to harshly condemn others and to stand over them as if your life is perfect. God is the only judge with clean hands. The rest of us are dirty people, pointing each other to the shower.”Trip Lee


I don’t want to be a hypocrite.


MC Jin – Hypocrite [Black Chapter] – album drops today, buy on iTunes!:)


be blessed,



Personal Musings


Got mad joy recently.

…if that didn’t make sense, I meant – I’ve been feeling crazy amounts of joy in the past week or so. God’s been teaching me a lot of things about myself and Him….:D


Even though I feel physically wrecked from my recent move (hello, bachelorette? pad! ..!?), I still feel that blessing though!

….haha. I’m just gonna run with it=P



Ahahahaha. Excuse me. It is getting late.

Be blessed!