Personal Musings

FOR THE BROKEN.

“Welcome to the church in the wild
I live with dudes haven’t been to church in a while
I’ve chosen this lifestyle, you ever met my friends?
Porn stars, dope dealers, they like, “Why you chill with them”?
I thought you was a Christian? Yeah I’m on that team
But I’m with them cause my life’s the only bible that they’ve ever seen” –

– Andy Mineo

 

 

Once again, this post was inspired by thoughts provoked from listening to Andy Mineo‘s track ‘Wild Things‘. STILL a must-buy album for me, so please check it out if you haven’t had the chance yet!

 
I think a common misconception I come across is that when people think of Christians – they immediately associate Christians with innocent, ‘goody two-shoes’ people who either are oblivious to anything bad around them and are permanently living in candyland; or as people who have a superiority complex over others who seemingly have a worse/more sinful lifestyle…

 
…this isnt true at all. Christians are not BETTER than anyone else in any way; its simply one being able to ADMIT their failures and sins, and having the humility to surrender everything to the one who CAN save. As I said in my previous post; we are all equal – no matter who we are, we all have the exact same potential to sin – to be Christian is just to admit this, and KNOW that God is in control, and when Jesus said “It is FINISHED.” He meant it.

 
As Jeff Bethke [a young guy from Seattle who’s wisdom i REALLY respect] put nicely in his “Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus” spoken word,

 
“Because if grace is water, then the church should be an ocean
It’s not a museum for good people, it’s a hospital for the broken
Which means I don’t have to hide my failure, I don’t have to hide my sin
Because it doesn’t depend on me it depends on him”

 

 

Jesus came into the world to SAVE everyone, but especially those who needed healing and restoration – and called on the BROKEN to become soldiers of light [Matthew 9:12 “On hearing this, Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.’ “]. For the righteous and those who had everything in their lifes didn’t believe in Jesus or that they needed Him.

 
And isn’t this somewhat true of today? How often do we come to God to pray when we are in dire trouble, or in desperate need of something? We pray out of desperation when it is convenient for us – like we keep God in a little box labelled “IN CASE OF EMERGENCY”. But how often do we come to God when we have everything we need? How often would we sacrifice something for God when we are in a position to receive everything we need WITHOUT Him?

 
This is why [I believe] that in countries that are less priveledged, the love of God [towards God] and the grace of God shown in much greater amounts; for in times of trial and tribulation, God pours out his grace. I have heard this first hand from North Korean women who escaped Kim Jong Il’s reign [by the skin of their teeth, mind you. My heart breaks at what ‘normal’ life is for them over there] and I was astonished, and HUMBLED by how great their faith was, how much more than mine – MUCH MUCH more than mine, women who have suffered emotionally and physically in ways that I could not even…comprehend. And how God provided soo richly for them – for without suffering in some way, there is no door for God to enter our lives, and we are [naturally] not as aware of God as much. because we technically ‘don’t need Him’.

 

2 Corinthians 12:9 “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”

 
Okay so…a lot of time I also get “Why would you want someone to control your life? Have fun not doing what YOU want to do.” Lets think of it another way – not ‘control’.
When life feeds you lemons and vinegar and NOTHING seems to be going right, and you don’t know where to go or what to do or HOW to do it…how much would you want someone who LOVES you to come, give you a hug, tell you its okay and that you don’t HAVE to be strong all the time because they will be strong for you and protect you. and that they’re going to hold your hand through your hard times and will help you to fix up your life – if only you let them. AND granted, to get that feeling involves having FAITH [which…is important…and hard…hahaha] but God WILL provide. He comes for the broken, not for the able.

 
1 Timothy 1:15 “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners – of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life.”

 
God entered my life at a period where I was beyond broken – and was ready to throw myself away – but 3-4 years on, through a [painful, and still ongoing] process, I am someone who I never thought I would be. and I am so SO thankful for that; for God took hold of my life and cut off the limbs that needed to be cut, broke the chains and is teaching me to be something different; VERY different, but better. I’m starting to find out what ‘life’ looks like, for the first time EVER.
So if this is what ‘control’ looks like, im all in. The world could never give me what I hoped it would; as much as I tried. I can’t control my own life, I stuff it up. And I’m definitely not the only one who thinks this.

 
God can and will use you in what you THOUGHT was a weakness – but it will be a point in which you can minister to those who go through the same thing; the main difference being is that you’ve reached the light at the end of the tunnel…how much would you be able to HELP them; when others who have not had that particular experience would not be able to relate in the same way? how AWESOME is that?

 

Let us not forget, that through what Jesus did on the cross we are washed CLEAN. Broken or not, we do not need to hold that burden of our sin.

 
1 Corinthians 6:9-11 “Do you know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? ….And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.”

 
Ephesians 2:4-5 “But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions – it is by grace that you have been saved.”

 
…CLEAAAAAN!! \o/

 

 

Also a reminder – a lot of prominent people in the Bible were sinners, and did great works for God – Moses was a murderer, Paul actively prosecuted Christians + was responsible for many deaths, David committed adultery and consequential murder, Rahab was a prostitute….now I’m sure a lot of you haven’t killed anyone or committed adultery [or have you? just kidding] – and look how God was able to use them! So how much would He also be able to use YOU? 😀

 

 

2 Corinthians 4:7 “But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God, and not from us.”
So, my jars of clay…we know that God will give us the potential for greatness, despite being broken and in need of help. And it is the LOST who need God…and who need to be reached out to.

 
“But um, if we ain’t living it who else gon’ show em
What a family supposed to look like instead of them broken homes
Gotta be living stones around where they getting stoned”

 

did this make sense? I’m never sure, haha.

 

be blessed,

 

beckii xo

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Passage Musings

ALL EQUAL.

Listening to Andy Mineo’s new ‘Heroes for Sale’ album for the past few days nonstop has evoked many a new thought in my head. Its AWESOME. AMAZING. Whatever you want to call it, Andy is on fire and the more I listen the more meaning I hear from his lyrics.

 

CONVICTION. Anyway….I might blog more in depth about his awesome album in a later post. Go support a brother and buy his album on iTunes! or on Reach Records if you don’t have iTunes, like me.

 

Christian rap is starting to reaaaaallly be on point. PtL for hiphop!

 

 

 

SO! As ‘Superhuman’ played in my head all Friday morning [ “so the grace I talk about in all of my records / I need it for myself cause really I’m just a mess”, “they expected / me to be a man without flaws / thats false I am just another rapper that’s called to point y’all to the cross”] it made me think of the vineyard parable I had recently read in Matthew.

 

 

Matthew 20:1-16 (NIV)

 

“For the kingdom of heaven is like a landowner who went out early in the morning to hire men to work in his vineyard. He agreed to pay then a denarius for the day and sent them out into his vineyard.

About the third hour he went out and saw others standing in the marketplace doing nothing. He told them, ‘You also go and work in my vineyard, and I will pay you whatever is right.’ So they went.

He went out again about the sixth hour and the ninth hour and did the same thing. About the eleventh hour he went out and found still others standing around. He asked them, ‘Why have you been standing here all day long doing nothing?’

‘Because no one has hired us,’ they answered. He said to them, ‘You also go and work in my vineyard.’

When evening came, the owner of the vineyard said to his foreman, ‘Call the workers and pay them their wages, beginning with the last ones hired and going on to the first.’

The workers who were hired about the eleventh hour came and each received a denarius. So when those who came who were hired first, they expected to receive more. But each one of them also received a denarius. When they received it, they began to grumble against the landowner. ‘These men who were hired last worked only one hour,’ they said, ‘and you who have made them equal to us who have borne the burden of the work and the heat of the day.’

But he answered one of them, ‘Friend, I am not being unfair to you. Didn’t you agree to work for a denarious? Take your pay and go. I want to give the man who was hired last the same as I gave you. Don’t I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous?’

So the last will be first, and the first will be last.”

 

 

 

Okay that was long. And I suppose when I read it on first glance, I too was kind of like…what the heck?! Who toils all day and gets the same pay as someone who only worked one hour? Thats not fair! But I think it is actually a pretty hmm…humbling revelation when you realise that in the kingdom of God, it ain’t about you and how much more you did compared to someone else. Its what Jesus did for us; and that no matter how long you have been saved for, EVERYONE’s salvation is the same, and equal in God’s eyes.

 

The workers who were asked to the vineyard earlier believed it was for their OWN efforts that they deserved to be paid more, even thought they had agreed on the wage they were to be given.

 

In contrast, the workers that were left over in the eleventh hour were just that. Left over. and probably not the most able. The best always get chosen first for something, right? until the landowner came and found them and gave them work to do and the chance to earn some money.

 

And so we can see [or at least I think so…welcome to my blog haha] that this is an example of God’s GRACE. That no matter if we are blessed with more skills and abilities to do more and reach higher status and success in this world, or if we are more unfortunate in our circumstances and fail at things in our life, it doesn’t matter. God’s grace extends to us all, in the same amount, and we all receive the SAME salvation.

 

So be humbled in knowing that you are not superior over anyone else; nor are you any lesser. we are alllllll but…human! and Jesus came to die for us all….not for anything we did in particular, but that God’s love extends unconditionally for all.

 

 

blessings,

 

 

beckii xo

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Personal Musings

WORTH.

“We cannot think of being acceptable to others until we have first proven acceptable to ourselves.”
― Malcolm X

 
as I alluded to in my previous blog, self-worth – or lack of it – had a tight grip on me growing up [and still holds me in bondage to some extent, even now] and well into my young adult working years [although…i suppose I’ve only been out of university some 3+ years…..shhhh! still counts somewhat, haha] I struggled against feeling I was worth anything and that I had to really, really WORK for acceptance and love from others. for it did not seem freely given.

 
how many times do we fall into this trap? watching the world around us – believing that if we are not good looking, don’t earn a lot of money, are not incredibly [book] smart, don’t have high status – that we are of lesser worth than those who have been blessed with the possession of such things.

 
NOT true! ….I try to remind myself of this…daily…because I fail…daily…rofl.

 
due to environmental factors growing up I held solid to the fact that if I did not perform well, if I did not earn a lot of money – then I was worth NOTHING. that noone would ever care, love, or notice me unless I could be impressive in some way.

 
so I wasn’t [naturally] the brightest crayon in the box, I was far from pretty [I went through WAY more than an ugly duckling phase. more like…brown bagged sickly ducky don’t-look-at-me phase], I was okay at a lot of things but never excelled at anything [ jack of all trades, master of none], I was incredibly introverted – and by constantly, constantly comparing myself to others, this pushed me to work hard to prove myself; but by the same vein, increased my self hatred and loathing tenfold.

 
[again…not healthy. don’t ever compare yourself to others. God made you the way you are, flaws and all. you have your own special purpose given to YOU – other people have their own, different purpose]

 
transitioning from that into an awkward young adult – trying to be something I wasn’t to try and earn the love others seemingly easily received [“why can’t I look like that?”]; constantly getting questions “when do you work?” “when are you working?” “how much money do you earn?” “you should be working to earn money right now” “why aren’t you getting any money for this?” …BURNT OUT. so I ask myself – why do I exist, if everything I do is never good enough and consequently noone will love me for it?

 
working so hard endlessly to earn your worth is fruitless – after a while it just feels like nothing you do will ever be good enough, right? that you have to keep doing more and more and more to feel your worth. WELCOME TO STRUGGLETOWN ^_____^

 
“I will never be rich enough”, “I will never be thin enough”, “I will never be pretty enough”, “I will never be popular enough”….the list goes on!

 

 

 

and then I realised – God calls us to live in this world, but not to be OF it [Paul tells us in 1 Peter 2:11, “Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul.”] – we do not need to look to the world for approval, nor to feel bad if we are not accepted as different to what is ‘normal’….because God made us just the way he wanted us:) we weren’t made to be SOMEONE ELSE.

 
Pastor Young Kim from Bethel Church preached this past weekend at a worship night, and one thing he said particularly stuck with me…WHO told you that you cant do a certain thing? Who told you that you aren’t beautiful? Who told you that you aren’t able to succeed? WHO TOLD YOU THAT YOU ARE NOT WORTHY?

 
The lies of the world will always be around us – but we are called for a greater purpose! you ARE worthy, because God has chosen you as his child of light. And this is freely given to us through Jesus’ death, through what HE did. FREELY given. As cliche as this will be, im going to pop in the well used John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” [i swear this is relevant to what im about to write….really. ahaha]

 
Lot of people out there are like…PPFT! as if someone sacrificing their own son is love! …but isnt it? I can’t go too much into this for fear of veering too far off topic [rambling beckii…there’s a party going on in my head and I don’t know whats going on] but this is the extent of how much God loves YOU and how WORTHY YOU ARE – that you would be saved from the perils of sin [which we all have…don’t pretend you don’t. I certainly do] by sending his most beloved…his own son…to take the burden of all the things He hates, so that we may receive true life. and Jesus willingly took this burden.

 
A more relatable example – if someone was to die in place of you, willingly…someone who was a good, amazing person – what would you feel? would you be able to feel the sacrifice they made for you?

 

 

our worth lies in not how much we earn, or how many girls or boys we can attract, or how many likes we get on a Facebook status or followers on Twitter. what does it really matter if some celeb ‘follows’ you, or likes your status? they’re just people in the end, just like anyone else.

 
worldly status is nothing. our worth lies in who we ARE, and what we DO with it. God loves YOU, and God calls us to love each other as unconditionally as possible [….as humanly possible, anyway] and not fall into sin [of envy of others, of self hatred, of bitterness….etc].
cmon…when you KNOW someone loves you…don’t you feel all the more worthy?

 
as love increases; the need to meet standards of the world decreases. you WILL have value no matter what! in Gods eyes, and you don’t have to struggle to receive acceptance from those who may judge you on external/superficial factors. You can be poor as anything, rich as anything…it will not change God’s love for you. It’s going to be exactly the same regardless. Buddy.

 
Romans 8:38-39 “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

 
as love increases; your awareness of your true worth will start to increase….for you are loved, and there is no fear in true love [ 1 John 4:18 “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”]

 

 
Other ladies [because…I need this just as much as you do] – you don’t need to struggle with conforming to the world’s standard of beauty…cake-facing your makeup is just gonna clog your pores;) and dressing for attention just brings the wrong attention…but we wont go into that too much in this blog. Man looks at outer appearances, but God will look at your HEART. again, its WHO YOU ARE that determines your worth.

 
A sister from Bethel church shared the past weekend, and another thing resounded with me. “God asked, “But don’t you care about what I think? Don’t you care about my words for you?”” Do we tune out God’s love for us and look more to the world for acceptance?

 
1 Peter 3:3-4 “Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.”

 
…aight. so let me be clear. I’m not saying you have to go au naturale and not care about your appearance because its all supposed to be ‘internal beauty’….no. just saying, it should not be the ROOT of where your beauty comes from! have substance…ladies:)

 

 

As for the worry of money and that we need more and more and more and more…chiiilll. God’s got this! Hebrews 13:5 tells us, “Keep your loves free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” “ Personally right now…I’m not earning anything. My status as someone who has cash moneys is gone [rofl]…but I’ve had the most joy in my life than I have ever, ever had, right now. Trust in God and don’t look to the world to find your worth.

 

 

We all are made differently for different purposes – y’all don’t need to compare yourself to someone who isn’t YOU. Especially in the body of Christ, we are all called to do different things, ESPECIALLY in our seeming weakness.

 
1 Corinthians 18-20 “But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. If there were all one part, where would the body be? As it is, there are many parts, but one body.”

 
1 Corinthians 12:22-23 “On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, and the parts we think are less honorable we treat with special honor…”

 
Ephesians 4:15-16 “Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.”

 

 

God can, and WILL use you if you are willing – you ARE worthy! [2 Corinthians 4:7-10 “But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair, persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.”]

 
In the end, we are ALL THE SAME. noone is better than you; noone is worse. we all just have different roles in this world. so you have the same worth in God’s eyes as anyone else [and that is…everyone be exalted together WHOO]! So let us try to love each other rather than looking at everyone through green tinted glasses.

 
Galatians 3:26-29 “You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourself with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise.”

 
Galatians 5:13-15 “You, my brothers, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love. The entire law is summed up in a single command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” If you keep on biting and devouring each other, watch out or you will be destroyed by each other.”

 

 

Again…we are made NEW in Christ. don’t worry about what the old you thought about your worth in this world. it’s irrelevant. and there’s something greater.

 
Ephesians 4:22-24 “You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.”

 

 

So to sum up my massive blah blah blah [wow this turned out to be longer than expected] – YOU ARE WORTHY. Trust and rest in God, and know that through Christ we will ALWAYS be loved and worthy, no matter how much you think you messed up your life.

 
Love others; don’t compare yourself to others who are not you, and don’t have the same purpose as you. God sees your beauty [man I struggle on this one] and will have a specific plan for YOU. we are NOT perfect, noone is – but doesn’t mean your flaws cannot be loved. so don’t try and struggle to prove your worth by trying to be something else when this love for you comes freely to you.

 
and as a side note…you have struggles – but don’t worry, so does everyone else [yes, yes…THEY DO.] who knows…someone else could be looking up to you, thinking they want what you have…=]

 

 
be blessed,

 

 

beckii xo

 

 

p.s I’m still working on this belief myself….weee cmonnnnn I need to break this!

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Personal Musings

PRIDE.

beeeeen a long, long time since I’ve sat down to blog – life has been jam packed in the past few months! I finally decided to start this blog to document my own self musings, bible studies, and other related things as I walk this journey to seek and pursue God, here in Seoul.

 

I’ve actually wanted to do this for a long time….but for fear of persecution and provoking I did not. And….well…now I realise…it’s going to come whether I like it or not. ahahah. so whatever! I’m gonna do it anyway.
so please note, everything I say here is my own thoughts and perceptions, and I do this mainly as a record for the outflow of my many, many jumbled thoughts, as well as perhaps to encourage, and stimulate deeper thought for other believers [maybe non believers?!] around.

 
so, iif you want to read and comment, please do with an open mind, and not one aimed to provoke. THANKS (^___^)
…because then I’m just not going to approve the comment (^____^)v

 

so the topic of PRIDE, like HUMILITY, is a pretty hard one to tackle.

 
Pride is, something we most likely all struggle from. Pride being defined as ‘a feeling of deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one’s own achievements, the achievements of one’s close associates, or from qualities or possessions that are widely admired’. This usually comes hand in hand with having achieved something, over/greater than somebody else.

 
if I say I am not prideful – am I really? [on the flipside, if i said I am humble – in saying that, would I be? haha] For in saying that I am…well…taking pride i the fact that I have done such a thing, and in so doing elevating myself above others who struggle with it….so….maybe not.

 
Due to the particular enviroment I was exposed to growing up, I was surrounded by prominent influential figures who were incredibly proud, and would often use their status to boast about how much they had, how much better they were than other people, etc….and stemming from that, i despised it, and decided well – that i was going to shut myself DOWN in order to NEVER become proud.

 
…this kind of backfired on me as I grew up from my harsh self-condemnation and I ended up with about…1% self esteem. ahaha! …eh…0__O [so dont do that either…its incredibly unhealthy]
It is okay to be proud OF your achievements, but it is not okay to think this gives you some sort of platform above other people.

 
That might seem like a bit of a bold statement but cmon….someone reading this has to relate to thinking themselves better in an area of their life compared to others. I know I do! I do also still struggle in areas of my life that I have pride in. I gotta stop lying to myself!

 
For example – I guess I’ve always had the appearance of someone who can tolerate a lot of pain/is tough….and I can. buuut I have my limits! Which I of course have lied to myself about. SO…my example is, I was getting reflexology in Singapore with my cousins end of last year, and I told my massage dude that I can take hard massages. if anyone has had reflexology before….it hurts like hell. like REALLY hurts.

 
Anyway! this particular masseuse dude [I am never going back to you again] was a bit overzealous, and literally put all his strength into crushing my legs. Let me tell you, it was so painful I was breaking out into sweat and I couldnt talk! I think my cousin was wondering why I was so quiet haha. But because I’ve always said, “YEAAH I can take hard reflexology fiiine ^__^” I told myself to shut up and take the pain.

 

So guess what I ended up with after? two incredibly purply-red very very bruised + sore legs, and a messed up back. ARGH!!! thankyou pride, you just messed me up….

 

 

…and many other prideful moments of myself which…may be revealed in due time, but this is my first post so please give me some grace hahaha ^^

 

 

Pride is something that the Bible tells us to get rid of, and to embrace humility instead. 1 Peter 5:5-7 (NIV) tells us “All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.” Humble yourselves, therefor, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.”
The greatest commandment we are told to do is to LOVE God, and love one another [Matthew 22:36-40] – so if we think ourselves better than someone else, how can we organically, and truely love others and love God if we think ourselves to be on a platform looking down? [oh herro] This is why HUMILITY is so needed so that we are all on the same level, loving each other equally, not as someone coming from higher or lower status.

 
1 John 3:16-17 “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?”

 

 

It is not possible to emulate true selfless love when you look down on someone out of pity, or because you have something they dont and you want to glorify yourself by giving them something and showing them you have that power. Because then the focus is given to yourself, and not to God – let us do things not to elevate ourselves, but to elevate Him.

 
James 13-16 “Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you harbour bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such “wisdom” does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.
But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.”

 

 

With pride, we cannot truly receive the things of God, because we don’t really want what He wants, we want what WE want. and that blocks His will from flowing through us. [ James 4:2-3 “You want something but don’t get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.”]

 

It is who we ARE, and what we DO with it that matters in the end, and NOT what we OWN, and what our STATUS is.

 

Because at the end of the day, all this dies with us. What remains? The relationships you built with people, the legacy you left behind of being that person to humble themselves and truely help someone in need because of genuine care and love. Noone cares how much money you have when you die [unless you got yourself a GOOLDDD DIGGERR WHOOO ….jk], they want the hearts who love them to be near them.

 
James 4: 14-16 “Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will love and do this or that.” As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil.”

 
Let us be blessed by blessing others – but do so without ulterior motives! [1 Peter 3: 8-9 “…live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.”]

 
…and hand in hand with pride, comes judgement – as we ALL already know…we are in no position to judge others as we ourselves are FAR from perfect! I know I am culprit to this all the time…and I’m glad His mercies are new every day or some large finger from heaven would probably come down and squash me *SQUISH* Do not throw rocks at others when you aint without sin yourself! do NOT judge!

 
Come to me if you need glasses to clearly see the speck of dust in your brothers eye, and I’ll remove that massive foreign body in your own eye….haha I am so funny -____- *nerd*

 

 

So…I dont know if this all made sense. It made more sense in my head then when I transferred it to text. But let us all DIE to pride. For we were made NEW in Christ, not refurbished/renovated/fixed up but brand NEW…so these things dont need to be with us anymore:)[Matthew 9: 16-17 ” “No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment, for the patch will pull away from the garment, making the tear worse. Neither do men pour new wine into old wineskins. If they do, the skins will burst, the wine will run out and the wineskins be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins, and both are preserved.” “].

 
Not easy…but thats why God’s mercies are newwwwww everyyyy dayyyy!! PtL! die to self; and tell your flesh to SHUT UP:D

 
Let us love, love, love:)
2 John 5-6 ” …I am not writing you a new command but one we have had from the beginning. I ask that we love one another. And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love.”

 

 

Be blessed!

 

beckii xo

 

p.s something tells me im going to have to die to self straight after posting this… -___-

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